I has taken so long for me to figure out what it was that I actually wanted. I could put my finger on what I THOUGHT I wanted, but it hasn't felt right for awhile. A lot of big changes are coming for me and my little family. I wanted to write this on the blog and put it out there so I can't take it back. I will be resigning from teaching. Yes, you heard that right.....I. Am. Done. And I'm not 100% sure what the future holds for me but I do know that I am worthy of WANTING to be the mom and wife that I haven't been. I can no longer sacrifice my own family to love other people's kids. If you know me at all, you KNOW this is the hardest thing I have ever done. But in doing so, I have found a peace that I have needed for so very very long. This is the start of my new chapter, for reals this time. Perhaps this is what one might call a "mid-life crisis" but to me, it actually feels like the most refreshing mid-life "rebirth". What do I want to be when I grow up? Sigh......so many possibilities.
